out of breath

in the morning...

i have my breakfast with my family...

i sued them for further studies...

they recommend me to study in form 6....

because they are not enough money for me to study in college...

my heart fell down directly from a height...

i really dont like to study in forn 6...

i know i dont have the ability ...

my result is not excellent...

i am not clever...

i dont want waste my time...

1 year can earn many money..

but i know college's fee is very costly...

ah~~~~

money money money~~~

money problem was forced me to breathe faster...

i am very trouble...

what should i do now..

dilemma now....

can i adhere my belief...

or i need to accept their opinion...

if they force me to study in form six..

i will working until i have money to study in college...

money is the one of problem..

another problem is course what should i take...

i am no direction...

my interest is make up...

but i know that it is impossible become my job in my future..

public relation???

human resource???

hotel management???

stewardess???

which one can i choose?

which one is suitable for me?

many n many question appear...

n many question mark appear...

i dont want ask n listen to the view of others...

because this is my future...

i like to decide myself...

i need to decide myself..

n i must decide myself..

even if i make a false choice...

also my own thing...

if  i listen the view of other...

i also must be responsible myself...

that y i dont want ask the other to make choice...

heavy heart.....

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hahahaha....

today i have been sign my first contract.....

wahahahaha....

super happy...

n satisfaction...

hope this is a good start for me....

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